I’m not very good at this sort of personal blog post; in fact, I hate it. But, alas, I feel my readers deserve an explanation. Firstly, I do enjoy blogging and I know it’s a cliché, but it means a lot to have met so many different people who wish to hear my thoughts and opinions on a variety of subjects. I cannot thank you enough. Plus, the relationships I’ve built with the media-especially BBC Radio Kent-has been beyond my wildest dreams (urgh, forgive the phrase). And if it wasn’t for Liberal Democrat Voice, I’d probably wouldn’t be blogging.
First reason for this announcement is related to my writing; I’ve lost confidence and lack the drive I use to have. I don’t know why, but the motivation has evaporated. As I tweeted last night, everything I believed in-politically-has turned out to be one big lie. And it saddens me. Individual evolution does lead to disassociating yourself from once held beliefs, but the current environment is extremely uninspiring and depressing that I need to escape from it all. And everything I write seems weak, tedious and lacking – struggled with external contributions.
And I need a break from politics in general. Too sectarian, too partisan and confrontational. My Liberal Democrat membership renewal form has been carefully waiting for several weeks; if everything you believed in was a false reality, then there is no point fighting the battle. Don’t know if I shall renewal.
Second reason is quite personal. For those who know me as Daniel Furr the person, not the political blogger, realise my life is currently chaotic. The last few months have been rather dark and unfortunate for me; my attention and priorities are elsewhere, for understandable reasons. In all honesty, I’m lost. I’ve always believed in standing on your own two feet, but it’s quite the struggle at the moment. Maybe when the tempest ceases I’ll explain, but currently won’t be talking about it. This is kinda related to me losing confidence in writing, etc.
As I blow out the candle, I will be still around. And I promise to return. Just need to rediscover myself and heal some wounds.