I tend not to do ‘bleeding heart’ blog posts about my personal life. My writing tends to be strictly political. Nothing else. But alas, I feel the need to exploit this medium to get a few issues off my chest.
Sadly, I was born with an “imperfect” bone structure. A painful combination of pectus excavatum (rib cage deformity) and bone distortion in both my knees. Either my days are peaceful, pleasant and enjoyable or I am in extreme agony. Due to this disorder, I am unable to work full time – the pain is literally too much at times. However, I do work though; sitting around and feeling sorry for myself does not appeal to me. I risk damaging and hindering myself though – potentially reducing the ability to walk or even crippling me.
Pectus excavatum adds pressure to my lungs, thus I am also a suffer of serve asthma. Your humble blogger is quite a tragic case :/ However, my situation does not sadden or even depress my mood. There is nothing I can do to alter my life, but I’ve managed to take advantage of it to explore potential avenues; such as talents or hobbies.
Financial, believe it or not, I’ve been quite lucky. I’ve refused state help or welfare – the government is not here to look after me. Careful saving and investments means money is no real worry for me.
Talking about it is still quite bizarre and uncomfortable; I have an old fashion view of not seeking attention or sympathy. But, however, seeing today is quite a bad day for me (pain wise) I felt the need to share it will my readers.